3.01AM 23/07/2006

YAWNZZZZZZZ. just got back from food. I ended up in bangsar anyway eating roti canai. I went day hoping to get some good stuff and all i see is closed shops and more closed shops. Even the bars are closing at 2.30++. Darn, i do wonder where's the old bangsar gone too. Used to be alot fun than now... bars staying open after 3 in the morning and there's a lot of happening stuff going on around. Now that place looks kinda dead. I supposed Jalan P. Ramlee is the good spot to be at the moment. Lotsa Chicks, drinks, Clubs... yum yum. Wished i was there with a couple of friends. We would have partied like no tomorrow. Back in the office now. nobody here at the moment. all my team mates went out for their food. i'm kinda seeing a lot of nice starry starry stars around me. I wish i was at home playing EVE online. Argh...... just 2 more days and i can get my caldarian Battleship. Then i am soooo gonna be blasting those friggin Cartel ships. I sure hope i can find some rare and nice stuff... would be making nice pure isk.

I had a chat with a friend some time back. She ask me whether i had a gf or not. when i said no , she ask me how come no..... That i find it as a pretty good question... HOW COME NOOOO? i supposed i don't really know how to answer that one on my own. If i had it my way, i sure as heck love to find a gf and give her as much love i can possibly give. But then when i think of my current situation...... is it the right thing to do? my work is going to be one factor..... my own life is another factor... and the worst part is........ i love someone that doesn't love me? hard to stomach it sometimes. i really really wanted her to understand what it means for me to love her. Maybe i'm not rich nor handsome but i'll be damn sure i'll treat her right... yeap. i can certainly say AMEN to that. sometimes i imagine i have a gf. Would be nice to have someone beside me where i can give a nice warm hug and be hugged back... find someplace peacefull.... a park or some other place where no one is around. just spending some good ol quality time together. that would be beautifull. i had a gf once, she wasn't really pretty but the inner character of the person.............ahhhhhhhh i don't think i can find another nicer person than her. i can actually say i love her with all my heart. i sure as heck miss her. brings back a lot of memories when i think about her.... so much laughter and joy.. it is a contentment when you wake up in the morning and you can feel her arms around you. And all the moments together........ just putting her head on my chest with my arms around her while we are watching movies. lovely lovely...... where has it all gone??? oh well....