long time no blog

10.57am... office.

Walau weh. i just check my past blog and i discover that i haven't been blogging for almost the whole past month? damn. thats a long time. lets see. what happen to me that gave me this period of silence...

2 weeks back i was on Medical leave. i got food poisoning!? yeah. i just discovered a new formula for instant food poisoning. Nasi lemak + Ayam + fruit juice (Orange + carrot + ideal milk). Long formula right? Its a 100 % chance that you will definitely get food poisoning. So much for that. I ended throwing up everything for the next 2 days. Not to mention i 've gone thinner.. (OH NOOOOOOOO......!!!) thats what happens for last 2 weeks

1 week ago.
i only have a vague memory of what happened during last week. all i could recall is the sheer amount of work we kept on getting on our side. I don't seem to get it but since that new workgroup called ECO Sale support has been established, we been getting a hell lot of new cases from unknown people. Not to say that i am complaining or what, more work means that i learn more and also means that i won't run out of a job, right? seems so.

Present situation;
Well. plenty of things happened last night. I lost my Battleship due to being careless last night. (sob sob). All those things gone. that SOB who whacked me was pretty good at it. Mjolnir rage torps. Shit man. Those things bites. I've got a replacement and i'down to 645mil? I've still got a feeling imi and the guys are going to be sooo jealous. Lost a raven but i still got so much in cash. Haha. I also had fun last night. Thanks Ivy, you gave me a lot of warmth and love and comfort that i seem to be lacking this time of my life. Thanks to you, i had a great time. You never change do you eh girl? Your cooking is still pretty much the same. not much of erm taste i suppose but in the presense of a nice girl. Somehow i find it tasty... something sounds very wrong here. very very WRONG. If a food is not that good. How come a mere presense of a person can make it taste good? I'm going damn siau.... or issit a mere sign of flames igniting? To me, i definitely would want to hug you and caress you and say words of endearment to you. The memories of past still lingers around with me. It is a shame that i wasn't able to ...... do my best the last time being together. Forgive me?

I've been in contact with another friend of mine this few days. all i can say that i am not sure if i am getting attracted to her or not. She certainly has her qualities that i find quite alluring it seems. I ask myself this question, should i try to work out a relationship and see how it goes? Somehow i am afraid of what happens if i do reveal my feelings to her. Will she accept? or will she rejects? Arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! whats happening to me? Am i still considering myself sane or am i going crazy. She is a good girl by definition. Not a church girl but i really don't know. Church elders have been saying that i look for a church girl but how do i look for a church girl when my personal walk with christ is messed up like monkey? I really cannot answer certain questions nor say them for the fear of things. Someone once told me that you are saved when you accept christ but i do know that i am condemned to eternal damnation even thou i accept god in my life. Why ? Because i KEPT on SINNING. I can't find the willpower to resist temptation that is soooo darn tempting!!!!. haih. Sometimes i wonder what will happen when i die and stand in front of the god during judgement day. I am definitely so gonna get it from God.. hahahahaha...

Well. in office currently. Had a lovely breakfast from San Francisco Coffee. Eggs, Sausages, Mushroom, and lovely bread with butter and jam. Yum Yum... wonder what i'm going to eat for lunch later... well. i'll think it over.