Sad man. this is really sad?
ah. back to blogging i suppose. i've had some....no.. its a lot of interesting times. i am seriously wondering how the heck am i going to write all of it in a day... maybe i ought to split it up in parts.. maybe not.
A lot of things have been happening lately to make me question my faith. Yes. u heard it correctly. ! FAITH!. Sometimes i doubt if i still have anymore faith left in me. Going to church and reading the bible and doing quiet time alone for me doesn't really say that i am a faithfull person or not. my actions certainly would prove it soooo wrong. well. for starters, i allowed myself to be seduced in such a way that i really almost lose it. seriously i came pretty damn close to losing. The evil side of me would certainly be saying its your lost dude while the angelic side of me says thank the good lord i didin't lose it completely. But as in usual my darker side would always say hey, it sure was fun. when am i going to do it again? The good side, which is getting lesser and lesser says noooooooo!. NO man! NO!. argh. the struggle of one's side is consuming the mental state of me.
its deepavali today and guess what? i'm in the office all lone ranger and poor old me , i've got to work. Got a password change to do and guess what.? i can't do it! it says that i need system manager access to perform the password changes. Shit is what i can say. if the system only allows me to have the access i can just get it done and not be worry with it. stupid WAM and COMPASSS. making trouble for me. sheesh.... now i'm wondering what the heck do i do. i'm stuck with the password change stuff that i totally have no access and best of all. it has to be completed by this weekend. this is sort of handling me a bomb and asking me to defuse it in like 10secs? oh well. if i can't finish it , its going to go back to the weekday shift. i' won't give a rats arse if i complete it or not. as long as i tried.
my eve days are horrible as well. i'm down to like 400++ mil. lost 5 god damn ravens in just 1 month!. Stupid IA and RA and Goons. Its a damn campaign going on in them wildlands. i wish the war would stop but hell, its going on forever. haih.
oklah. stop here. dunno what to write already. no more mood currently. shit. work till monday. tuesday off then work till friday again. dammit!
A lot of things have been happening lately to make me question my faith. Yes. u heard it correctly. ! FAITH!. Sometimes i doubt if i still have anymore faith left in me. Going to church and reading the bible and doing quiet time alone for me doesn't really say that i am a faithfull person or not. my actions certainly would prove it soooo wrong. well. for starters, i allowed myself to be seduced in such a way that i really almost lose it. seriously i came pretty damn close to losing. The evil side of me would certainly be saying its your lost dude while the angelic side of me says thank the good lord i didin't lose it completely. But as in usual my darker side would always say hey, it sure was fun. when am i going to do it again? The good side, which is getting lesser and lesser says noooooooo!. NO man! NO!. argh. the struggle of one's side is consuming the mental state of me.
its deepavali today and guess what? i'm in the office all lone ranger and poor old me , i've got to work. Got a password change to do and guess what.? i can't do it! it says that i need system manager access to perform the password changes. Shit is what i can say. if the system only allows me to have the access i can just get it done and not be worry with it. stupid WAM and COMPASSS. making trouble for me. sheesh.... now i'm wondering what the heck do i do. i'm stuck with the password change stuff that i totally have no access and best of all. it has to be completed by this weekend. this is sort of handling me a bomb and asking me to defuse it in like 10secs? oh well. if i can't finish it , its going to go back to the weekday shift. i' won't give a rats arse if i complete it or not. as long as i tried.
my eve days are horrible as well. i'm down to like 400++ mil. lost 5 god damn ravens in just 1 month!. Stupid IA and RA and Goons. Its a damn campaign going on in them wildlands. i wish the war would stop but hell, its going on forever. haih.
oklah. stop here. dunno what to write already. no more mood currently. shit. work till monday. tuesday off then work till friday again. dammit!
posted by Kelvin Chong @ 6:41 PM
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