2.09am

nothing much to do here for today... i am in the office for the moment but i am sooooo free..................... yeahhhhh..... so nice.. thats the nice thing about working on a weekend. nobody place calls. no one to disturb. i think earl is asleep. so is salvador... antonio should be out and around i think... wheeeeeeee...... i can just surf the net with a 2MB line per secs... heheheheheh. who says working for HP ain't fun? okok... i admit the hours are kinda weird but hey... i suppose its a small price to pay if you wanna have some fun sometimes. i miss church today again... haihsssss.... i think they definitely had fun without me.. sometimes i get the feeling that i am no longer a member of the church.. makes me feel that i am like a guest there.. i suppose i can't blame anyone for this. i choose the patch, therefore the consequences has to be beared by me. i always know that by signing up for this job, i will definitely be less frequent to church. its a definite no doubt about it. i cannot deny the feelings of guilt sometimes that i have for choosing this job over church, but what choice do i have. i've often pondered this... what are the choices that i have currently? if i had stayed at the old company, where would i progress? i don't know anything about accounting and neither am i fond of it. true i enjoyed the conversations with some of the clients but i just don't find anything else besides the darn reports every month. now i switch over to HP and so far i find it quite good, the only thing thats not good is that i have to work weekends twice a month... i know somehow this will affect my faith.. it will definitely affect. i cannot and will not argue or dismiss this as mere after action stuff... i sometimes wonder why i am around,.. what am i meant to do? am i suppose to lead lost souls to find God? or am i just meant to live a life, struggle like mad to survive, and then pass on? on many accounts and times i have almost made the decision to leave the church for i don't know what's going on anymore. sure i know the elders say that i must serve and serve and do whatever leading or stuff but deep down inside it, what is the main basis of my own faith? do i still have a faith.? i can say with certainty that my day to day actions and activities sometimes is leading me straight down to hell... i know i shouldn't miss certain things but i actually miss clubbing. i miss the old times i had. This is definitely not good. better wipe my mind clean of these things... okok. get back to work,..... better not laze around for too much....

2.26am 30/07/2006

In the office again, i suppose i always have a lot to write after i had a nice meal to make myself content... not much been happening this days.. the last 2 days were kinda a bit maddening. First of all its no thanks to Jorge morfin and the other robello,,,,, robelooo..... aaahhhh the hell with it. its a robbe fella something jorge, god knows what sort of names this fellas have sometime. No thanks to his reinit calls me and the fellas were kept quite bz throughout the whole night. i was sure as heck happy when the time reaches 6.30am here at our place... no more calls logged from them. I personally think i am getting along well with the guys cept for one or two that i am not quite sure... i suppose time will tell on this one. You can never never put an equation on people. no matter how hard you try, they are just people....so here i am now sitting in the office with just 2 colleagues wondering what the heck am i suppose to do? i wish i could've install eve here.. then definitely i could have a lot of fun ratting.. i can't wait to get back home to test out the modules i got for the raven.. it should be nice... i do wonder if i should generally boost my explosive resistance more or should i boost a little of everything? maybe i ought to check around a bit. have to make sure that my Battleship can take the tank of those suckers of i am in a world of hurt.. BANE torps... sure as heck nice to salvo 6 of em at a malakim and watch it die... hehehehehe. i miss paintball. by god i miss it.. 2 weeks i haven't touch that gun.. i wonder if i should invest in a gun for myself. it should be quite interesting but those things are soo bloody expensive... maybe i ought to invest it in some better tech gadgets. nothing much to talk about now. i guess i better head to do some of the OPC and locator checks i am supposed too do. else i might get a bane torp myself from gomez.. hehe

06.38am 28/07/2006

back in the office after 2 days of break. what a bz night..10 bloody cases and 2 job aborts... what a way to start my 4 days of shift nights... so what did i do during my break? well. for starters i played a lot of eve.. managed to get my caldari battleship. its a nice and beautifull RAVEN. i dump in 6 torp launchers and some other stuff... wheeeeee. angel cartel's battleship was smashed by me... other than that, nothing much happened. sleep and eat mostly. well. back to work. i had a really "fun " night i suppose no thanks to the 2 job aborts... the job aborts ain't that hard. it s the darn timing u have to becarefull with. Padilla Fernando is certainly driving me nuts... Mass update for 20K locators???? he must be nuts. i wonder what the heck is going down in MEXICO... haih.. well. lazy to type d. maybe i'll do it later. right now i feel like getting a nap..
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6.28am. 25/07/2006

this has absolutely make me blur. by now i managed to clear up most of the stuff but for 2 of the calls, i've absolutely have no idea as in what the heck do i do next. call 1: Fernando. seems to me that he wants to know which locators are actually active in the CRS. he's saying that the current locator showing in WWCISYS is inactive. the best part is, that bloke send me a 4mb excel file and it contains almost 23000 locators inside. what the fish does he expect me to do with it?! the worst part is i got no access to COC30 or the test machines to do the investigation for him.. i'll need to ask around for this one. 2nd call: George Robinson. This joker also another one, send in 2 case for us to handle, test reinit for Hongkong. i already selected 10 locators, performed a reinit and send it over to him saying pls check the batch id after the next distribution run... he came back and say he did not receive the bloody locators. Did he really wait for the next distribution run then check?? "eyes looks up" God knows! and he wants the locators sent to HAZEL test machine... now where the heck did this HAZEL test machine comes from? i've never heard of it before......... maybe i did... HAZEL chocolates..... haha. oh yeah... i forgot one more call. this guy david is a super bloke. we send him the mail telling him that one of those locators can't be reinited because the INV2 is actually linked to another locator, so we performed the reinit for that locator. and he came back with the blasted email saying he didin't get the first locator. ask us to resend again... arse. didin't he read the mail we sent him?????????? nvm. i send it again to him explaining in detail that the locator is not reinitable.. no reply's yet. i hope it stays that way... i want to go home and have some rest. 4 night shifts is enough to turn you pretty well into a zombie. had a nice chat with a my student earlier. mentions she like someone.. interesting interesting. i wouldn't hide the fact that i had the feelings for her in the first place but now... nah, better not. she is after all my student. better not come up with some monkey business... i guess i'll just do some encouraging a long the way and play the nice little cupid.. i hope my arrows dun miss... heh..

2.34AM 25/07/2006

can't really focus in the office i suppose. i am getting very very tired . super glad that i am on off day for 2 days. but thursday night repeat the whole process again. aiyoooooo. that darn con291dj abort again.. why can't someone get the schedule and get batchnet or something be sync with it? This is a little frustrating at time. Oh well. got one nice email from this david maldonado. he says thank you bla bla bla but can i do the reinit again for the locator. That locator doesn fulfill the INV2 thing how the hell am i supposed to reinit that bloody damn thing again!!!!!!!!!!!!!. i am sooooooo gonna screw him. "snores" 2.38 and i am already sleepy here. only got like 4 1/2 hours of sleep. dunno why. maybe i'll try to hit the sack when its at 6am... then again maybe not. month end approaching. there gonna be a lot of funny funny cases from them clowns............. Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......................sight..........

8.44am. 24/07/2006

1 1/2 more hours and i am so gone from this place. i can't wait to get back home and sleep. well, maybe a little eve in the process then i'll definitely hit the bed. as usual , all peacefull since my last blog. i wouldn't say the same for tonight, i hope its still peacefull but somehow i have my doubts. i have my doubts. i'm actually hungry now. quite hungry indeed. i suppose HP normally provides breakfast but where the heck is it? i wouldn't m ind if they bring it earlier, would be nice if they got like nasi lemak or some bread. even the usual kuih or some pastries would be quite filling to fill me up. anyway. lazy to write... try to write later when i come up with more stuff.

4.13AM 24/07/2006

Just got back from my food expedition. went over to Mc donalds and grab a double cheese burger, fries and a nice good drink. back at the office and guess what greeted me? JOB ABORT..... darn jobs. lets see, its WWC308RJ. okay. this is a WWCISYS application for the MERCURY machine. well. i checked it out and seems to me some family file had a access creation violation or some sort. The logs says purge the family file and rerun the job. ok. i didin't really get to do that. my colleague was way ahead of me. she managed to check and get the job done before i even managed to retrieve the error logs. talk about going fast. they are fast!!! i'll have to learn to do things faster.. well. with regards to my tinkering the calls , i am not tinkering them at all. better to leave those AP calls to the day shift fellas. So only thing i have today so far is 2 job aborts. one with the bugger CON 291dj and the other one is this WWC308RJ... so far so good. nothing bad happened yet.... crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. i dun wan to have any servers down like the last time. Darn DIADEMA alsmost killed us all last time it went down... non stop calls coming in to find out whats wrong. we had our hands full. Pretty nice for me tonight that not much things to do. i'm gonna have to do my monitoring thing soon. 4.30 am monitor AP and the APJ server make sure those darn machines are running fine with no job abort. got my headphones plug to my ears playing mflo, utada, yuuka and so many more.. thank you for radioblogclub.com. this site rocks man with the music that i can get. getting a tad sleepy. maybe after the monitoring i'll get some nap? then again maybe not. not good sleeping on the job... bad for my reps. better keep my head nice and clear. hmmmmm.... coffeee again????? why not.... i got a long long day ahead of me. 5 1/2 more hours to go. better make myself awake.............


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11.35pm 23/07/2006

Ok... back in the office. nothing much happening at the moment. I'm expecting the stupid darn CON201DJ to abort anytime pretty soon. i'll have to figure it out on how to rerun the job. at least i managed to figure how to check the job last night. I sure hope it doesn't abort. Nothing much happen today.. went for breakfast after work, grab some nice half boil eggs and some toast bread with butter and kaya.. doesn't sound too bad at all. Wished i had a little more appetite, i could surely go for some good old dim sum ing....... hehe. I'm all alone here in the office. One team mate is on the phone, god knows what he is doing. the other one went out to do some stuff. So i am pretty much left alone to look after all these wanking machines. I wished i slept more, problem is.... i can't sleep.... i slept at 1pm in the afternoon and woke up at 7.. 6 hours is by my definition is totally out of the equation. i certainly wish i got 3 hours more. Had a relatively lovely time on eve today. Mining = boring...... Its the sheer profit i get from that darns roids that kept me going. Imi says i'm lucky to get so much in just 2 months playing. well.. if you want to call it luck, i suppose thats how i am going to call it. nicely mined 1.5k of roids today on the 28y-9p system. loved that placed a lot,.... Can't really wait to get my RAVEN..... oh how i am going to head over to IAK and start blasting. Better watch out for those REDS. bloody deadly foes they are. i wish we were more powerfull then we can certainly launch one of our own campaigns against them. Its bout time we whoop their arse around a bit. 10 hours more to go on my job and i'm like blur blur here..... just read the eve chronicles. interesting stories they write over there... would be nice if i can write my own chronicles about my journey in eve online. would be heck lot of fun to read too. losing this and that stuff to NPC's.... hah!!! Oh well. enough about eve. i still got some calls over here under the OVSD system. I wonder if i should be tinkering with it. These calls are clearly under the AP region. maybe i'll mess with one or 2 later. but then again, i am in no mood to tinker with it, might do some wrong stuff and get myself fried in the process... thinking... i'll decide to figure out whether to thinker or not..... Buggger.... 11.52pm i am seriously in the mood of snoring... would be nice though.... nah better not... better kept myself awake for contingencies. never know when that might happen. Maybe i'll grab another cup of coffee and make myself comfortable.. would be nice reading the bible tooo since i am bloody free for the moment. i might as well read it since i miss church today. Maybe i'll read 1st Timothy chapter 1... see what it says to me........


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9.11AM 23/07/2006

*YAWN* Ok. finally got up.. definitely slept a lot last night at work.. i shouldn't be doing that but what the hell, there's been no cases, no calls, no problems so why not.....? i suppose my colleague was looking at me while i slept peacefully. i have a bad feeling that i might get it. 9.13 in my clock. The folks should be worshipping right about now and i'm in the office having my morning cup of coffee. i can't wait for it to reach 10.00am. i am sooooo gonna go home to sleep and play some eve. shucks. temperature in the office is kinda cold. i wish they could turn down the aircond here. Turning it off would be much nicer. oh well. maybe i'll make some phone calls and disturb some friends.. hehehe..... i am soooooo evil!!!

5.07am 23/07/2006

well... all peace and quiet in the office. no calls and certainly no job abort incidents. took a nice quick nap earlier and now i feel kinda better... my team mates are nicely ZZZzzz beside me.. i got my headphones on and music playing nicely in my ears. sounds kinda nice right? wait till the stupid calls start coming in again, then i am going to have bloody loads of fun. I certainly wish i was at home sleeping and going to church later in the morning..... certainly want to go to church and see some love ones over there... chuckles... can't say who's the love ones. might lose my head if names are mentioned.. sometimes i ponder my decision to actually leave the old company and come to work for HP. Is it the right decision that i've made? I knew somehow i needed to leave the old company. I discovered i am running out of patience and the darn reports that i always have to bring back home to do. That is sure ain't life. If you have to bring your work back home and do it till the wee morning hours. Better throw the towel in and head to a new place i suppose. I am missing church 3 times this month..... i can't contemplate what this is going to do to my spiritual life. Not to mention my relationship with the rest of the fellas back at church. I am somehow beginning to sense that i am no longer there at church with them. strange as though it seems, it has been bugging me quite a number of times... It feels as though that i am a foreigner in church... odd and strange. i didin't wish for circumstances to appear as they were but i dunno... i took this job realising that i will definitely be working 2 weekends per month. questions i ask and more questions i get. Is this life? Is this what i call a journey to actually discover the inner self of who i really am and what i really am suppose to do??? i can't find the solution to these thoughts that constantly swivel in my head. i've prayed about it and i know somehow that i was here to do something for HIM,,,,, but what exactly is my purpose? My existance in this world? Am i meant for something beautifull or meant for something dark? By my old accounts i have done dark deeds.... so dark that if i have to write an account of it. i think it could make a very very nice bestseller in heaven. (heh) Sometimes i am filled with doubts, doubts that cannot be mentioned to brothers or sisters who know me for the fear of contaminating them. I cannot and will not lead anyone astray.. i cannot afford to make that mistake. No way! If this doubts are meant to be doubts i have to handle on my own so be it...... The presense of good and bad in oneself. How do we actually explain such mystery? Is it what we called the spiritual realm of warfare where we are at war with of our own demons? If it is then I have certainly experience battles of my own and i have lost some battles with dire consequences. Such are the consequences that it can't be comprehended by anyone else except god. God knows how I prayed for forgiveness.. God knows that but i don't know if i can forgive this soul of mine... oh well. i supposed i will know when my time is up in this blasted earth... back to work as they say. No rest for the weary. i supposed death is the final rest for the me..........

3.01AM 23/07/2006

YAWNZZZZZZZ. just got back from food. I ended up in bangsar anyway eating roti canai. I went day hoping to get some good stuff and all i see is closed shops and more closed shops. Even the bars are closing at 2.30++. Darn, i do wonder where's the old bangsar gone too. Used to be alot fun than now... bars staying open after 3 in the morning and there's a lot of happening stuff going on around. Now that place looks kinda dead. I supposed Jalan P. Ramlee is the good spot to be at the moment. Lotsa Chicks, drinks, Clubs... yum yum. Wished i was there with a couple of friends. We would have partied like no tomorrow. Back in the office now. nobody here at the moment. all my team mates went out for their food. i'm kinda seeing a lot of nice starry starry stars around me. I wish i was at home playing EVE online. Argh...... just 2 more days and i can get my caldarian Battleship. Then i am soooo gonna be blasting those friggin Cartel ships. I sure hope i can find some rare and nice stuff... would be making nice pure isk.

I had a chat with a friend some time back. She ask me whether i had a gf or not. when i said no , she ask me how come no..... That i find it as a pretty good question... HOW COME NOOOO? i supposed i don't really know how to answer that one on my own. If i had it my way, i sure as heck love to find a gf and give her as much love i can possibly give. But then when i think of my current situation...... is it the right thing to do? my work is going to be one factor..... my own life is another factor... and the worst part is........ i love someone that doesn't love me? hard to stomach it sometimes. i really really wanted her to understand what it means for me to love her. Maybe i'm not rich nor handsome but i'll be damn sure i'll treat her right... yeap. i can certainly say AMEN to that. sometimes i imagine i have a gf. Would be nice to have someone beside me where i can give a nice warm hug and be hugged back... find someplace peacefull.... a park or some other place where no one is around. just spending some good ol quality time together. that would be beautifull. i had a gf once, she wasn't really pretty but the inner character of the person.............ahhhhhhhh i don't think i can find another nicer person than her. i can actually say i love her with all my heart. i sure as heck miss her. brings back a lot of memories when i think about her.... so much laughter and joy.. it is a contentment when you wake up in the morning and you can feel her arms around you. And all the moments together........ just putting her head on my chest with my arms around her while we are watching movies. lovely lovely...... where has it all gone??? oh well....

1.43AM 23/07/2006

Ok. now i am officially free for the moment. So, what do i do now? sleep? go find food? or what? if i do go find food where do i go? Bangsar sounds fun... i could always head there and hope to meet some friends and go drinking. besides the fact that i'll be in office drunk is such a bad idea. Pusat bandar damansara is nearby but i am soooo bored by that mamak stall. always the same food. shall i run over to Sri Hartamas? that place is a whirlwind of fun on saturday nights. traffic foul ups is a bad thing too. Maybe i'll head over to bangsar...... they do serve some good food over there after all. I'll definitely need some to nourish me up for the coming hours ahead.


alright then... Jalan telawi... BANGSAR. here i come for food and ........... drinks? chicks???? shit. i have to work. delete all after food.

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23/07/2006. 1.09AM

Well.. since i am working now i think it is most suitable for me to describe something more about me. I am currently working in HP. Working as a application support engineer. yeah i know, sounds kinda interesting but i suppose it is kinda interesting job. The pay is no that bad i suppose. I think i earned enough for myself although the more cash i make the better right? so what am i doing now currently? nothing much .. sitting next to a colleague. i have no idea what she's doing... i just had a bloody JOB ABEND. i am wondering what the heck is this CON291DJ. As i check i discovered it is the same bloody job that ABEND yesterday... okok. what the heck do i do now?????? okok. open the peridot server in CONRAD. check the job.. yes yes its abend. i have to check the other stuff.. see whats the error so i went to the main thingy. status. ok , text the job which i copied from the info i gotten in the same server again. put that blasted job in. get the info and L ALL.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. guess what i got? its the same blasted job that abend yesterday and its confirmed. why the hell is it abend since the same thing again and again??? oh screw it. lets see... it says batchnet not running? ok check batchnet. type in BNUTIL. ok. batch net is running now. so... what do i do next? i know i am suppose to rerun the job or somesort but i can't really remember how to.. oh well. my colleague already done it for me. so i guess i am safe at the moment. okok. email sent out. whoops. email sent wrongly.. damn. nvm. i'll have to learn the hard way u suppose. i better get this issue solved quick or else its going to be my arse on the line if i ended up working on a weekend. better check the documentations all over again to see whats going on.. oh well. back to the reinit calls again.......................

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Start of a new blog?

Well. its decided. I should start a new blog here... no more the other blog at friendster.. officialy ABEND... hehe. so let start with my introduction. I'm a 23 year old guy living in Malaysia. KL actually. stands for the kuala lumpur = city of mud... Currently just started working so ain't much of a life to talk about.

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